I don’t know what to do, now I finished chemotherapy today.

Milo01 — Fri, 23 Jan 2026 09:58:38 GMT

Hello,

I finished my chemotherapy treatment today and now I don’t know how to feel or what to do.

Yesterday I had a plan. I was doing my chemotherapy appointment today.

And today now that I have done the chemotherapy. I have no plans. I don’t have anything to do tomorrow. Chemotherapy is over. The life I have lived for so long is stopping. I know how to live that life.

I don’t know what to expect or how long it will take to start recovering from completing my chemotherapy regime. All I know is that in 3 weeks my body should start regenerating the healthy/good cells the chemo kept killing off.

But the chemotherapy is over and as I look in the mirror, all I see is myself with no hair and still feel the same way I did whilst doing the chemotherapy. I know you don’t flick a switch and life goes back to normal again.

But my life today, actually doesn’t resemble the way it was before diagnosis and treatment. So even if I could flick a switch, it still wouldn’t be the same. Life still happened whilst I was getting chemotherapy and I recently lost a beloved family member. So life isn’t the same anymore. Even if I want to get back to something that resembles “normal” again. Life is now different.

I am also scared that even though the CDU said goodbye to me today and the Medical Oncologist said today was my last day of chemotherapy, that it actually isn’t. It is just a fear, an anxiety that is lurking around. I am afraid to change my mindset only to have to come back to this one I have had during my chemotherapy treatment.

I am grateful that my chemotherapy has ended today. I can be emotionally mature enough to look outside of myself and know other people are in a different place to me.

But I can’t help feeling the way I do tonight.

I am exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally.

I need a good sleep.

Did anyone else feel this way? How did you find your feet again?

Thank you for listening.

Milo01

Re: I don’t know what to do, now I finished chemotherapy today.

Felicity_CCNSW — Mon, 02 Feb 2026 00:55:39 GMT

Hi @Milo01 ,

Thank you for sharing so openly what you are feeling and experiencing. It takes a lot of courage to speak openly about what you are navigating, and this is a place where those feelings are welcome.

I can hear in what you shared how overwhelming it is to have finished treatment and to begin to re-establish a new routine and way of life. I can hear also a sense of saddness and grief over what you have had to endure and the time you have lost in the process.

As you are entering this survivorship stage, please know that you are not alone. Many people find it very difficult. Here is a booklet about navigating survivorship.

Perhaps others in the forum could share how they navigated this stage and what they found helpful. I know that many people in this stage after treatment find it very challenging.

Take care,

Felicity

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