I am tired

Olddoug — Mon, 27 Apr 2026 07:45:58 GMT

Grunting, moaning, coughing, hacking to near exhaustion every muscle writhing and spasming with each cough. The bile rising like fire in my mouth, disgusting and bitter, my body’s reminder that I am not in control.

Sitting there begging me to take it, this small blue tablet will make all this go away, why do I hesitate:

This small tablet, this tiny tablet that will take me into a pleasant place where I can relax and rest.

My mouth starts to dry. My head starts to drift. My mind starts to fire, taking me on an unwanted journey. I lie here Awake, relaxed, no coughing, my skin crawling with ants.

My brain is hazy; the occasional cough jolts me back into existence and then I slowly drift off again into this cycle of madness.

Re: I am tired

Miranda_ccnsw — Tue, 28 Apr 2026 01:25:50 GMT

Hi @Olddoug - I hear you in your tiredness. Keep fighting.

All the best

Miranda

CCNSW

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