https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/New-Start-here/Where-do-i-start-could-be-a-long-journey-ahead/m-p/40418#M6944 <P>I have various forms of skin cancer and after having childhood<SPAN>l eukaemia</SPAN> the C word scares the living daylights out of me. Every spot, every ailment, every illness I think may be cancer coming back and I have a dooming paranoia that I am going to die early from either cancer, or the heart condition my chemotherapy suspectedly caused.<BR /><BR />Its not something I will ever get over psychologically and my only hope is that I can live a happy normal life without this coming back with avengeance.<BR /><BR />I will be forever removing everything from my skin I can and its starting to disfigure my head with noticeable scars on my scalp.</P><P>I just came in here to share my story and am waiting on my next surgery that wont be my last.</P> Tue, 07 Mar 2023 01:26:34 GMT MatthewSmith 2023-03-07T01:26:34Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/New-Start-here/Where-do-i-start-could-be-a-long-journey-ahead/m-p/40418#M6944 <P>I have various forms of skin cancer and after having childhood<SPAN>l eukaemia</SPAN> the C word scares the living daylights out of me. Every spot, every ailment, every illness I think may be cancer coming back and I have a dooming paranoia that I am going to die early from either cancer, or the heart condition my chemotherapy suspectedly caused.<BR /><BR />Its not something I will ever get over psychologically and my only hope is that I can live a happy normal life without this coming back with avengeance.<BR /><BR />I will be forever removing everything from my skin I can and its starting to disfigure my head with noticeable scars on my scalp.</P><P>I just came in here to share my story and am waiting on my next surgery that wont be my last.</P> Tue, 07 Mar 2023 01:26:34 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/New-Start-here/Where-do-i-start-could-be-a-long-journey-ahead/m-p/40418#M6944 MatthewSmith 2023-03-07T01:26:34Z