https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/895#M202 the waiting is definitely tough, even now between cycle 1 &2 I am getting some anxiety about the mid program scan to see if its had any effect. But you know what, I am also finding it interesting living each day as if I had a few more. In some ways quite liberating and other fears are put in perspective. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:54 GMT Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:54Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/880#M187 Hi Qijote, welcome to the website. It's a scary and confusing time when you're first diagnosed. Feel free to ask us any questions and please keep us up to date Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:38 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/880#M187 mikey 2009-03-11T01:02:38Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/881#M188 thanks mikey. This web site is a real help as is the phone service that I used today to get some answers to questions that were really bugging me.  I am quickly learning about taking a day at a time. Something very new to me. God bless you all. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:39 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/881#M188 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:39Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/882#M189 Hi everyone... I havent got diagnosed yet. I found a lump in my breast, saw a doctor, and today went to mammogram and ultrasound. In a few days answers would come. for more testing or so. But I thought to get logged here early,  I may sound pompous, please do not miss understand me. I'm naive, a bit conserned too, so I'm logged in here. I find this site very informative, but they wont stop my mind to wander in to all if's. If this happens, or that happens, how do I handle myself mentally.? I know, I have run away with it too far too soon. Maybe just a one day a time.   Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:40 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/882#M189 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:40Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/883#M190 Don't worry about being pompous, where all here with the same worries and challenges. I hope yours turns out to be something quite treatable. I'm now waiting on my first session of chemo and my attitude is starting to change from fear to a desire to get on with it. Keep in touch and let me know how it goes. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:41 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/883#M190 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:41Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/884#M191 Thank you to wellcoming me in. I'm new and confused with it all. It is amazing at what fed days deep thinking does, life values slightly differs from yesterday.. I gave a big hug to my teen ager daughter, she were a bit scuirmish, looked me at I have lost my marbles. I actually told her, at where i'm now. Sure, she went "I dont wanna know about it mum". But I felt at she need to be informed asap,  kids /teens feel more than we can hide. And when we go this journey together, she ignoring, but knowing, and maybe one day respecting our relationship at we do not hide anything from each. It is respect in my eyes. This is a new road, more to learn, accept, respect.....   Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:42 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/884#M191 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:42Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/885#M192 its not easy telling anyone especially your own kids. But Ive found them to be more resilient than I thought. At least they appera to shut out negative thoughts better than I do. I talked to someone today and it was interesting because I don't view it as a "battle". Its not like I have a choice but to take whats given and let nature decide how my body responds. Certainly a positive attitude makes each day more pleasant. But I can now see it clearly as a journey, a detour in the life that I thought I had planned and maybe will get back on again one day. It has changed my perspective on life and whats important and how interesting it is to accept that not many others can see it. You have to be in these shoes to trully know it. take care Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:43 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/885#M192 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:43Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/886#M193 Quote: You have to be in these shoes to trully know it. take care   -------- I did not meant to be all knowing at all. Sorry if I said something wrong. I'm just getting these shoes fitted. I really dont know at what to expect, or how to fit in to my shoes. It's a journey for me, to find my humblessness again, and accept it. I think at my ego is having bigger journey than my body. I'm just a beginner here. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:43 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/886#M193 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:43Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/887#M194 you saidnothing wrong at all. I was referring to people outside this community or forthat matter anyone not facing serious illnesses like these.  anyway, what else is happeningin your life?   Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:44 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/887#M194 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:44Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/888#M195 Hi guys,I really think it is a battle we have to wage..I was diagnosed with stage 3 pancreatic cancer and ,even after 2.5yrs,I still battle this everyday. The biggest thing is to enjoy every day the best way you can.That's,to me, the one thing we have that the general population don't have.After going through this we know what's important!!!!If you think about it,we're the lucky ones Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:45 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/888#M195 margro 2009-03-11T01:02:45Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/889#M196  Hi you all, I got test results of my mammogrph and scans, all clear. My Doc said at they are not 100% secure, so next to get biobsy of the lump. It took few days to collect my courage, other words to hype myself to see my Doc. I was ready, then I felt confused again, like missing out, (it may sound funny). I was ready for more serious answers. Feeling mislead, I feel at I have misslead you other posters with nothing. I go for biobsy and see what next. Take care..   Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:46 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/889#M196 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:46Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/890#M197 Hi Inga, That is really good news about the results of your mamogram. Having a lump in your breast can be really frightening & the waiting is the worst. I'm 33 & have had 3 lots of biopsys for breast lumps due to the history in my family, my mother has just come home from hospital for the second time in 10 years battling breast cancer & her sister, my Aunty has also had breast cancer so i have to have every lump checked out. Having said that most lumps in the breast turn out not to be cancer but it is important to have them checked out right away because early detection can save your life. I'm not sure how old you are but maybe you could ask to have regular mamograms to ease your mind a little, they are not much fun but well worth it for the peace of mind it brings. Butterfly     Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:48 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/890#M197 2009-03-11T01:02:48Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/891#M198 enough cannot be said about getting any lumps checked out for men and women. I have no history of it at all, same for family, but if I did not get my lump in the place where it came up (armpit) which made it obvious, then who knows what my chances would have been.   Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:49 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/891#M198 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:49Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/892#M199 Hi there.. Next week I got an another doctors appointment, I hate this seeing one and going to next and next and next and next. They just sending me back and forth all a time. Next Monday I see an another one, who is supposed to get me to hospital Operation, to get the pea cut out. If I hade a knife myself, sharp enough, I would cut it out myself. Its just under the skin, and not deep inside. See I'm getting a bit frustrated here. I want action, right now... I took few days of last week, took my car to South Coast rented a beach front cabin, walked on a beach and collected my thoughts, or actually running away for a few days. I feel calmer now, talked with waves, scrreamed my lungs out, asked fullmoon for support, cryed my eyes out,,, It helpt to get this extra angst out.. Huh, Zeech I feel stronger now. What ever happens next, let it happen, and I'm just floating with the waves, no more resistance.... Acceptance I think its called. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:51 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/892#M199 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:51Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/893#M200 Ooops, computer did show my post twice.. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:52 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/893#M200 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:52Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/894#M201 The waiting is the worst. The thoughts that go through your mind are hard to push away sometimes no matter how positive you are. I learnt that its okay to have all these thoughts & worries, its only natural when you are facing the possibility of cancer. I have done my fair of crying and screaming over the last 2 years & sometimes its good to get it out. Good luck with your next doctors visit. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:53 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/894#M201 2009-03-11T01:02:53Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/895#M202 the waiting is definitely tough, even now between cycle 1 &2 I am getting some anxiety about the mid program scan to see if its had any effect. But you know what, I am also finding it interesting living each day as if I had a few more. In some ways quite liberating and other fears are put in perspective. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:54 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/895#M202 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:54Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/896#M203 Inga, The waiting is the worse time I agree. Trust me I have been down this path many times as you just want it to happen get it over with so you can get on with life. I think the beach front shack was good. It is important to be in touch with nature and get your thoughts and strength together for whatever lies ahead. Wishing you the best of luck and my prayers are with you. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:54 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/896#M203 Kate 2009-03-11T01:02:54Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/897#M204  Hello all, Sorry if I dont talk too much personally... It is Monday, saw my specialist today, got me booked to hospital, to have my CYST removed. He said at its a cyst. Hoo haa,, I feel GOOD. He got me in on Friday the 13th. Lucky day...... In local anaesthetic, that sounds good, ja... I can breathe again.. I feel kind of quilty, at things sounds good, and getting all support from you guys. I hope at they wont find anything else, and it is only a cyst. ... As soon I know, I will you know. My deepest Love to you all.. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:55 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/897#M204 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:55Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/898#M205 Thats great news and Im happy for you. Now you have to move on, maye not forget the rest of us, but definitely move on with your life. BTW, my hairs starting to fall out, good sign? I can only imagine them cancer cells are also suffering. - Die you bastards! Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:56 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/898#M205 Quijote 2009-03-11T01:02:56Z https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/899#M206 Quijote...I know at you feel shit about me, so do I...At least your treatment is starting to work, I agree, "die you bastards cells". It is good to get angry and let it out.I'm not forgetting anything, I still have a gray cloud hovering over my head. Nothing is certain until that cyst of mine has been diagnosed. I was trying to fit in to these new shoes, and I'm not the same anymore, thats for sure. I got a new understanding, love for a life, and nicer personality, that may or may not shine to outside world, but a drop in a Ocean makes the Ocean when there is many enough. All my love to you.. Wed, 11 Mar 2009 01:02:57 GMT https://onlinecommunity.cancercouncil.com.au/t5/I-ve-just-been-diagnosed/Diagnosed-today/m-p/899#M206 inga 2009-03-11T01:02:57Z