Not sure where to begin really.. I feel like my whole world had been turned on its head and left me tangling with so many questions and not really getting any sense of what is next.
I had a Hemi right colectomy performed almost immediately following the diagnosis. Followed by Chemotherapy , I am just about to start my 4th cycle this Monday.
My oncology team are brilliant but I still have so many questions and I don't really know how to get or even word my questions.
The physical side of things, although uncomfortable, is pretty manageable.. The general tiredness is something that I am struggling to come to terms with.. Emotionally I feel a bit of a wreck, with questions that I find hard to pose or say without getting emotional so I prefer not to ask.
- When will I know whether the chemo is having an affect
- Will the chemo extend my life
- How do I manage not knowing how long I may have
- Why do I seem to cry at the drop of a hat
- What can I do to make the most out of the time I have whilst not knowing the time you have.
- How to remain positive around my family and not show weakness
- How can you explain how you you are feeling when you don't really know yourself.
I haven't reached out for any counselling as I thought I could manage things on my own but it is becoming increasingly obvious that maybe i should.
