Good morning Ann,
Firstly, sorry you have had to even join this site in the first place, but it's great to be in contact with you.
I had my surgery on the 19th August. A total thyroidectomy and central paratrachael node dissection. I had a singular solid nodule 4cm. They removed 8 lymph nodes and all contained metastatic cancer (which apparently now puts me at a higher risk of recurrence).
Because of the size of my tumour and the total ratio of lymph nodes affected I am due for radiation beginning the 16th October. I have been advised I will be in isolation at hospital for 3-4 days then I will have a CT scan the day I leave to see where (if at all) and how far it has spread. I am then to live somewhere other than my own home for another 10 after this as I have 2 children under 3.5 years old at home and I cannot be in close proximity or have physical contact with them over the 14 days.
I was started on Thyroxine (150 mcg) the day after surgery and this stopped 3.5 weeks ago in preparation for radiation. the hardest days I have experienced of being Hypothyroid is when I have gotten my period. still a few weeks to go though and I have been told it is completely normal to feel like I have chronic fatigue and be sad (more emotional than anything). I get body aches and get quite cold when others are warm (but then will have a hot flash). I have an increased appetite and am struggling to maintain my weight (due to the metabolism slowing down).
I just take it one day at a time. I'm also very honest about how I feel and try and explain to my family how I am feeling. it is hard for them to understand because it is not 'physically obvious' and so hard for them to help if I'm having a 'bad day'.
I also work full time and travel over an hour to get to and from work each day. I find I am at my lowest at the end of the day, but I believe if you can be in tune with what's happening to your body and recognise that these are symptoms of the change in body (no thyroid, no medication) then it is a lot easier to deal with and separate from day to day concerns.
I will admit it is hard not to be a bit of a hypochondriac! and think that every little lump or tenderness is related to having cancer and I would suggest writing down the date and time and your symptom and keep a track of it to discuss with your specialist. I have an Oncologist and an Endocronologist on my 'team' now. Soon to have a Nuclear Radiologist added to that in due course!
My initial FNAB came back as Hurthle Cell Carcinoma or a Variant of PTC (Papillary Thyroid Carcinoma) however final histology showed your good old garden variety of Papillary (I have learnt they really can't determine Hurthle Cell via FNAB) and will confirm this for you after your surgery.
I went through a period of thinking that everyone makes out like it's no big deal "a good cancer to have" (really, who says that?!) but I get what they mean. Still doesn't mean that it's ok and it's not a big deal. Might not be to them, but it is to me. 3 months ago I was just a mum and wife and work colleague, and now I'm Christyanne, with Thyroid Cancer. It's always there, it will always be with me. I will have to declare it at all future doctors appointments or if I get asked what the scar is about on my neck (although mine is pretty awesome if I do say so myself, hardly recognisable).
So you have had your surgery already and I'm assuming you are currently on no medication. Hence the reason you are having some symptoms. This is completely normal. And while the doctor says it won't cause any symptoms, unless he has had to go through the same thing, then I don't understand how he can say that.
Most of it I find (and from reading other people's forums and blogs) is that anxiety plays a large part of this. Try to not look at it as 'cancer' as that word has terrible associations. I try and look at mine as more of a chronic illness.
Stress will definitely not help you although it is hard to not worry. From all of the case studies and medical journals that I've read, I've learnt that this will not be life threatening (depending on your age and some other factors).
All the doctors will talk about how treatable it is and it will have no impact on your life however the second part of that statement is untrue. The first part of that statement is correct. Surgery and Radiation can continue to treat what you have. It is your quality of life that will be affected, however you, and only you can make the choice on how you wish to live the rest of your life.
You can look at this and deal with it as it comes, one hurdle at a time or you can look at it and believe it will be the end of you. And if you continue to live your life without being positive then chances are it will eat you up.
Do not be afraid to ask your doctors as many questions you can think of, even if you think they are stupid. (write them down as you think of them so you don't forget).
You need to remember that this is their job and they deal with it on a daily basis. it is not good for them to become emotionally attached to your journey otherwise they might not be able to do the best thing for you. But you are paying them a lot of money and therefore they should guide you through this.
I have found the nicer they are to you, the more concerned I feel. ask them to be honest with you. It is good and I think very important for you to know what is happening with your body.
It is hard for them to tell you 'what if's (which is very frustrating for us, and especially me who looks to be prepared for all scenarios). At the end of the day, you aren't alone and there are people going through the same thing as us every day.
And I guess I try and look at it this way "it could be worse". I'm alive, I haven't been given a timeframe of when I should expect to die and I am relatively healthy and will continue to deal with this, as it happens.
Sorry for the long reply, I just hope that you can relate to some of this (or anyone else reading it for that matter).
Happy to talk to you anytime Ann! 🙂
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