My name is Jessica and I am 27 years old. We recently found out that my dad has neck cancer, stage 4 and the cancer has also spread to his brain. Everyday, I feel so helpless and sad when I look at him. I wish I could do something to take his pain away. I can only imagine what he must be going through. When I look at him, I know he wants to cry but I pretend to be strong so that it doesn't make him weak. But I feel so fragile inside. I feel like someone has punched my gut and I can't breathe. Looking at your loved ones and knowing that they are in pain is the worst thing ever. We never had a family history of cancer so it's even more difficult because we don't really know what to do. His chemo is strating in two days and I am really scared because I have heard it leaves people really weak and makes them super sick. My dad was an athlete. He was always a healthy person and never fallen sick. He's so scared of needles and I can see it! Everytime we go for tests, he's so scared but he looks at me and says, "I am fine". I don't know what to do and I don't know why this happened to him. But this is such a tough time. I wish I knew how to cope with this better. We are so busy growing up and sometimes we fail to realise our parents are growing old too.
Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.