Hope4MyMum
What and If two separate words, put them together and they can create all sort of doubts and scenarios, could you have done more to help Mum?I am sure you would have done all in your power to help your Mum to ease her suffering,It is very hard watching a loved ones life slowly ebb away from you very painful, let the natural grief process begin when you are ready, and please have no what ifs, sorry for your Mum's passing.
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