Hello again Cindi, good to hear its not your liver, just an infection, hopefully antibiotics can clear it up. Ive actually cost myself five weeks in treatment time. When i was in the waiting room ready for my biopsy i panicked and bailed out before i was called in. Same thing happened when i was half an hour away from getting the mapping done on my liver, i bailed again. I dont really know if im strong enough to go through with it all, im 57 and ive had a good life. Im thinking a lot about pulling the pin on all the treatment, even though i havnt even started it yet. Its too hard to think about. I just feel like letting the disease run its course and whatever will be will be. Am i a coward?? . Am i weak??. Where do i find the strength ??. I have a beautiful loving partner who is in for the long road ahead, but i feel like a burden and dont want to put her through this. Anyway, im due in the hospital at 8am on Wednesday. Two more sleepless nights to work it out. All the best for you Cindi,   Greg xx ... View more

Hi there Cindi, i hope you are feeling a little better. Im thinking of you xx ... View more

Hi Cindi, sorry to hear youre not feeling well, it must be so stressful. I am going to Liverpool hospital. Its funny, the last time i had to go there (before this) was 1987 and i sat in emergency for 6 hours with a dislocated shoulder i did playing footy, and it was pretty basic back then. These days it is world class, i couldnt believe the change. Here i am 37 years later and im back there again. I sure im in good hands there. You take care, i hope you get to the bottom of whats causing you the pain. Take care, chat soon. Thinking of you xx ... View more

Hi Jennifer, thanks for those kind words, you are not wrong about it playing with your mind. Its like being strapped into a roller coaster, scared out of your mind, but you cant get off until you ride it out. I love a roller coaster, but not this one. Id really love to thank all the beautiful people on here who have sent me messages of support, love, hugs and kisses. Also the Cancer Council who have been amazing and have arranged some grocery and fuel cards to help get me through. Are you recently diagnosed Jennifer?  Greg ... View more

Hi Cindy, im in Sydney now, so getting to the beach is not as easy as it used to be, but i still go fishing now and then. Its calming. Im still able to walk but get tired really quickly. Im off to see my social worker today and as there is very limited parking i take the train, and the 15 min walk to the hospital even has me buggered sometimes. I know i have to soldier on if im going to see this through. Take care, G xx ... View more

Thats good to hear Cindy, sunshine always makes me feel better too. Its really tough, trying to come to grips with it all. Its like your life is cruising along then all of a sudden someone pulls on the handbrake, and everything changes. Where do you live? Do you have access to a beach? Thats always been my favourite place. Hope we can stay in touch, its good to talk to someone going through something similar, as bad as it is. My treatment will involve trying to shrink the tumour enough where they might be able to remove it. Its such a worry. Be strong and dont give up. I should listen to my own advice lol. Look after yourself. G x ... View more

Hi Cindy, thanks so much for your message and positive thoughts. Im trying to be optimistic, hearing that the SIRT treatment is quite successfull is another reason for hope. Havnt started it yet, but its part of the process i guess. How is your treatment, what path are you going down? Wishing you all the best, and a big hug too. Take care. Greg ... View more

Hi Maddi, thanks for the advice, i intend giving them a call tomorrow (Monday). I have a six week break now and my treatment starts on 4 November. Its a treatment called SIRT, im sure you know what that is. I ve also been given access to a social worker who i see on Tuesday, weve already discussed the Centrelink isue and she will be helping me with my claim, uploading documents etc, so that is a huge relief. As soon as i can submit my claim the sooner i might be getting some financial relief. However, im not sure how long the process takes, hopefully only a few weeks. Thankyou again Maddi, your help is much appreciated. Greg ... View more

I really hope youre doing well Janet, its a lonely place even with support. I send you love and hope its working out for you. Best wishes xx, Greg ... View more

Hi Ashley, i would really like to speak with a councilor, im not just going through this cancer issue, but i last worked on 3/8 and made the grand sum of $480. Ive had no income since. Currently trying to claim centrelink but theres a thousand hoops to jump through and im feeling like im completely overwhelmed, its not an easy process. Ive basically sold everything i hold dear. Surfboard gone, gerni gone, mums jewellery gone, only thing left to sell is my soul. I have a beautiful partner of 15 years who has been supporting me financially and emotionally, and im feeling so much guilt that ive been such a burden. I used to be so active but i dont think i will ever get that back. I will be making the call, ive never been so confused and stressed. ... View more