Thank you Sailor for your words. I didn't think it was that normal, feeling like this. All I seem to read about in terms of post-cancer life is, "how I got this second chance and I'm making the most of it like you wouldn't believe!!" or "It's all gung-ho! I'm fitting two lives in one, now with my second chance" or "I'm off climbing the Himalayas and after that I'll be diving for pearls near the Maldives and after that ..." My new job is part-time currently which appealed to me so I could gently ease myself back into the workforce but I find I'm battling anxiety every evening before I have to go in the next day. I just like living simply and quietly now without stress or challenges and all the stimulation. Cancer forced me to slow down and the recovery period extended that and now over the years it's become ingrained and I adapted to it and don't want to leave and it's quite clear my personality has changed because of it. I'm actually seeing a counsellor today at my hospital to talk about another issue so perhaps I can touch base on this, too. Thanks again. ... View more