Not sure where to  begin really.. I feel like my whole world had been turned on its head and left me tangling with so many questions and not really getting any sense of what is next. I had a Hemi right colectomy performed almost immediately following the diagnosis. Followed by Chemotherapy , I am just about to start my 4th cycle this Monday. My oncology team are brilliant but I still have so many questions and I don't really know how to get or even word my questions. The physical side of things, although uncomfortable, is pretty manageable.. The general tiredness is something that I am struggling to come to terms with.. Emotionally I feel a bit of a wreck, with questions that I find hard to pose or say without getting emotional so I prefer not to ask.   When will I know whether the chemo is having an affect Will the chemo extend my life How do I manage not knowing how long I may have Why do I seem to cry at the drop of a hat What can I do to make the most out of the time I have whilst not knowing the time you have. How to remain positive around my family and not show weakness How can you explain how you you are feeling when you don't really know yourself. I haven't reached out for any counselling as I thought I could manage things on my own but it is becoming increasingly obvious that maybe i should.     ... View more