Hi Bella, I can certainly relate to what you were saying, I lost my Mom to cancer 6 yrs ago and I still go through times of feeling sadness, guilt and regret. I was 37 when my Mom died and was 9 yrs old when my Dad died, it is very hard not to have parents to share life's ups and downs with. The first year after losing my Mom I had many dreams about her where she was dying and I was trying so hard to save her and felt such guilt that I wasn't able to. In my waking hours I felt a lot of guilt over not spending more time with her, and questioning myself as to whether I told her often enough that I loved her. I've tried to take the lessons I've learned through all of this and use them in my life now and how I treat those in my life that I love. Do you have any siblings? How long ago did your Mom pass on? ... View more