Hi there.... So sorry for your loss, I am in a similar position also, i lost my husband Les in February 2012, we would have been married 41 years this may and i know exactly how you feel. I would love to be able to contact you privately and maybe you and i could help each other. Regards Judy ... View more

hi my name is judy i have lost my husband 1 month ago as he had a very aggresive cancer.He was 63 and full of life up untill 6 months ago he sounds a lot like your dad very stubbourn as well .Reading your comments reminded me of my 2 daughters they are close to your age i would love for you to talk to them as they had the same feelings as you do now .I looked after my husband as long as i could at home luckily i had a lot of support from family .Also i know how hard it is for you to talk about funeral arrangements i couldnt either so my dear daughter in law did she ran it passed me what i wanted and that was all i had to do its hard enough without also making arrangements.We tryed to make every thing special for him the girls even made a video of all his old photos he used to ride in rodeos and he was a farrier by trade they posted it on you tube .There father loved it and so did his friends even the nurses at the hospital had a look .I remember saying to the palative care nurse one day if you are going to be looking after my husband you are going to know about the man first he is just not someone dieing of cancer his name is les hancock so she also got on youtube and had a look.She came back and thanked me we got on great and she helped us a lot .there is so much more i could share with you and help in any small way as we have been there to and know your pain .But dont give up you can do this and you will never have any regrets even just sitting with your dad and listening to music or talking about old times we never talked about dyeing always kept positive till the end as i said to the nurse i would rather have some one positive beside me than someone who will be negative even though we knew there was nothing to be done for him.so i hope things get easier for you and if you would ever like to talk to me or my daughters the offer is there .if you go on you tube type in dadsmovie les hancock maybe you can do the same for your dad to .take care and i will speak to you later judy .. ... View more

hi my name is judy i have lost my husband 1 month ago as he had a very aggresive cancer.He was 63 and full of life up untill 6 months ago he sounds a lot like your dad very stubbourn as well .Reading your comments reminded me of my 2 daughters they are close to your age i would love for you to talk to them as they had the same feelings as you do now .I looked after my husband as long as i could at home luckily i had a lot of support from family .Also i know how hard it is for you to talk about funeral arrangements i couldnt either so my dear daughter in law did she ran it passed me what i wanted and that was all i had to do its hard enough without also making arrangements.We tryed to make every thing special for him the girls even made a video of all his old photos he used to ride in rodeos and he was a farrier by trade they posted it on you tube .There father loved it and so did his friends even the nurses at the hospital had a look .I remember saying to the palative care nurse one day if you are going to be looking after my husband you are going to know about the man first he is just not someone dieing of cancer his name is les hancock so she also got on youtube and had a look.She came back and thanked me we got on great and she helped us a lot .there is so much more i could share with you and help in any small way as we have been there to and know your pain .But dont give up you can do this and you will never have any regrets even just sitting with your dad and listening to music or talking about old times we never talked about dyeing always kept positive till the end as i said to the nurse i would rather have some one positive beside me than someone who will be negative even though we knew there was nothing to be done for him.so i hope things get easier for you and if you would ever like to talk to me or my daughters the offer is there .if you go on you tube type in dadsmovie les hancock maybe you can do the same for your dad to .take care and i will speak to you later judy .. ... View more

hi my name is judy i have lost my husband 1 month ago as he had a very aggresive cancer.He was 63 and full of life up untill 6 months ago he sounds a lot like your dad very stubbourn as well .Reading your comments reminded me of my 2 daughters they are close to your age i would love for you to talk to them as they had the same feelings as you do now .I looked after my husband as long as i could at home luckily i had a lot of support from family .Also i know how hard it is for you to talk about funeral arrangements i couldnt either so my dear daughter in law did she ran it passed me what i wanted and that was all i had to do its hard enough without also making arrangements.We tryed to make every thing special for him the girls even made a video of all his old photos he used to ride in rodeos and he was a farrier by trade they posted it on you tube .There father loved it and so did his friends even the nurses at the hospital had a look .I remember saying to the palative care nurse one day if you are going to be looking after my husband you are going to know about the man first he is just not someone dieing of cancer his name is les hancock so she also got on youtube and had a look.She came back and thanked me we got on great and she helped us a lot .there is so much more i could share with you and help in any small way as we have been there to and know your pain .But dont give up you can do this and you will never have any regrets even just sitting with your dad and listening to music or talking about old times we never talked about dyeing always kept positive till the end as i said to the nurse i would rather have some one positive beside me than someone who will be negative even though we knew there was nothing to be done for him.so i hope things get easier for you and if you would ever like to talk to me or my daughters the offer is there .if you go on you tube type in dadsmovie les hancock maybe you can do the same for your dad to .take care and i will speak to you later judy .. ... View more