I am 63 years old. I am now cancer free.  Bowel cancer and liver cancer. Chemo and operations. Now 7 years remission.  I should be happy.  The effect of cancer on my life has changed it forever.  No career, no normal way of life.  The side effects have destroyed all of that.  "Get up and walk", "you look well", "keep positive", "watch what you eat" are all great words of wisdom, but to me they mean nothing.  I am tired, I have no energy all the time.  How can one lead a "normal" life when a toilet is a constant worry. Yes, I am on medication, yes I have tried counselling (even to be told there is nothing I can do for you!).  I even joined a gym, only to panic when I had to find a toilet quick!  I am fearful all the time that the cancer will return, so avoid invasive procedures. I am here, because I have a very loving, caring family.  The one thing in my life that I live for! I read other posts and gain stength in their journey. I will survive. ... View more

Finding it difficult coming to terms with the side effects of the anterior resection, no colostomy, the toilet can never be too far away, I know it is just a matter of getting my diet right, but it is hard to keep positive when there is so much discomfort. Chemo starts next week. I feel a fraud when I read other blogs........... ... View more