yeh i do too have days when it seems so surreal. i have a beautiful canvas photo in our bedroom of our son that brings me comfort whenever i look at it which is often. our son would want us to continue on enjoying ourselves but at present it is hard to do. without warning a thought, image or something someone says or i see something i know my son would of liked saddens me, its daily emotions that i go through on a daily basis. i find too when someone is speaking to me that my mind drifts to thinking about my son even though some times the subject we are talking about normally wouldnt trigger the thoughts & emotions that i find myself experiencing. somedays i just want to scream im not sure if that would make me feel better in the moment but thats how i feel at the time. at our sons memorial service we released 24 butterflies in honor of our son. within the first few wks that followed on 2 different occassions i had 2 beautiful butterflies that flew around closeby. i know i just have to take each day as it comes & go with my emotions im feeling at the time. ... View more

hi i completely understand how your feeling i lost my 24 yr old son last mth he had a terminal brain tumor. when my son was initally diagnosed with gbm tumor he was 21, we have all been on a rollercoaster ride & still are. somethings bring me comfort while others sadden me. i was on another cancer forum & a lady - spouse Carer said she was grieving when her partner was still alive, he also had gbm tumor & has passed away. yes cancer is a cruel way to go our son was passionate about donating his brain to research which he did & also his eyes he donated, with his eyes he has helped 2 middle age men we are very proud of our son he endured alot through out his journey but never complained. it surely plays havoc on our emotions sometimes on a daily basis. ... View more