Hi AJ, my heart broke as I read your story. That hole that is left by losing a loved one is so very hard enough without the suffering caused by cancer in the process of them going. I lost my Dad to stomach cancer which went everywhere in the end and in three months he was gone. Its painful, heart searing and something once seen hard unsee in our mind. I'm so sorry you have had to go through this. Talking as you have on this site is meaningful, not only for you but for those of us who also have travelled a similar path. I really hope life becomes gentler for you and my heart is with you. ... View more