I have not been diagnosed yet and I feel weird turning to a forum but I have nobody to talk to about this really. Everyone is really dismissive while I feel like I’m being tortured. I feel alone and I’m terrified.
I have lump that is swollen so bad it makes it tough to swallow. It hurts and pulsates with pain often. I didn’t even notice it until January 13th and I’ve been in hell since then. I went to the emergency room, they ran the strep and mono tests and what not, negative. I have a CT scan on the 20th of this month but it has felt like an eternity to get to and then I have to wait to get the results.
Then a couple days ago I noticed a lump on my lung and it started hurting so bad I ended up in the ER again. The dr there tells me after doing an X-ray and ultrasound that it could be just swelling.. or a sarcoma but I need to see my dr to schedule an MRI to determine that. Well considering I didn’t bump it on anything and I’m anemic and a lump that damn large would have an atrocious bruise, I’m pretty sure this now burning and painful lump on my leg is a sarcoma but I’m trying really hard to think it’s not.
Anybody have any advice to ease my mind?
Again, I’m sorry for posting when I’m not even sure if I have cancer but I’m terrified and I look at or think of my kids and I burst into tears. My 9 year is high functioning autistic and a few other things and he needs me, I’m his person who gets his soul. I’m a complete whole mess.
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