Hi all, I just needed to unload some of my thoughts, other wise I may go crazy. I was diagnosed with Ewing's Sarcoma in 2013 and was treated with 10 months of chemo and radiation. I went into remission in 2014 and was told March 2018 that I was finally cured. However, they said I would need just one more scan in a years time, just to be sure. So this week I got that scan and went for my appointment yesterday...where of course Doctors found some things that have concerned them. It could be absolutely nothing...this has happened before. Of course I have to wait two months until they check again. But I am just so frustrated because I was close to getting out. Since my Cancer was treated, I built a new career, got married and am currently trying to have a baby through egg donor/IVF. But news like this takes me straight back to feeling terrified, scared and lonely. I've got people there for me but they all say the same things...'you'll be fine'...'stay positive'...'don't stress'. But this just makes me feel like I'm not aloud to be scared and I feel alone. Like I said, this quite possible will just be another scare but I am just feeling so low right now, I don't know if I can get past this feeling of absolute emptyness. Ok, my rant is over. Back to work now. -B
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.