Hi guys my name is Lisa I am a 2 time head and neck cancer survivor.   My Story I was diagnosed when I was 30 with squamis cell carsinoma at that time they removed my right eye and surrounding area . No chemo or radiation at that time I went through numerous surgeries to have implants put in for a prosthetic to be held in well years of doing this I never got it completed. I am now 52 I have wore a bandage all that time.   A year ago I had a lymph node swell in my neck I went in right away they did a needle biopsy it was negative 3 weeks after it was the size of a grape back in I went at that point they did another more aggressive biopsy it was positive went for a pet scan and the whole right side of my face lit up IT Was back . They took me to surgery quickly it was stage 4  they ended up over 20 hours in surgery had to remove the side of my face roof of my mouth ect they removed bone from my shoulder graft off my leg I was a mess . I went through chemo and radiation together it was not that bad in the beginning them baam it hit . And was not fun at all I lost 89 lbs didn't eat for 3 months had mouth blisters radiation burns on my neck and very sick my pick line failed so i was having to get ivs put in 3 times per week for chemo and iv fluids .   After treatment was done I had and still have fatigue weakness ect my life has totally changed now I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism side affect of radiation so on more meds I go I struggle to get through everyday the worst for me is the public I have a bandage over the side of my face every time I go anywhere it's always comment. To me good and bad I'm already so self conscious it's unbearable . I just stay on my farm as much as possible my husband dogs and horses and family don't judge me and I can be me . Without the constant stares and comment s but I'm alive and thankful for my circle of people around me I just wanna be normal . But I will never be again and that's almost unimaginable .with all that being said I realize there are people alot worse than me any I pray for them every day and pray no one ever has to go through this hell.   If I can help anyone please ask I will give honest answer s even if it's not what you want to hear I think people need to be aware of good and bad I wish I would have known ... View more