I am about 4 weeks into another treatment option, this one hasn't put me into hospital or knocked me completely off my feet yet 🤞 so I was able to get a few things done.
I had managed to get out into the garden 2 mornings in a row recently, taking advantage of the beautiful spring weather, listening to the birds chatter and being completely unrealistic about how much gardening my body could handle [not very much as it turned out 😬]
Finally some motivation, a little extra energy [thanks be to steroids] and a good dose of determination, pushed me outside and into the glorious mix of garden soil & cow poo.
What a treat!
I had been busting to plant out my cucumber, capsicum and herb seedlings since the start of Spring. Not having the strength to get it done was doing my head in. The tomatoes were already in....somehow. I don't really remember planting them! Complete brain fog!!
I look forward to Spring planting and love growing my own seedlings over winter, having to care for those seedlings has been a huge motivation to get me moving and forces me outside to do what I can to keep them going. But doing that hasn't guaranteed that everything else would be ready in time.
The last 2 years had been so frustrating with not physically being able to get my garden ready and plants in the ground.
It felt that I had been made to stand still, have no movement, no momentum.
It is said that 'If you garden, you have hope' or 'If you plant a garden you believe in tomorrow'.
I guess that is true, you are always hopeful that what you plant will bloom or bears something, the time waiting for that to happen is hopeful, but to me that feels a bit on edge, like holding your breath while waiting for an outcome.
