I am in completely uncharted waters (for me), having enjoyed good health all of my life (so far). Now everything seems qualified by ifs and maybes. If this whatever shows such and such a result, maybe I will have to go this way or that way. Don't get me wrong - I will appreciate feeling well for as long as I can but I almost feel like a sham... all these doctor's appointments and I don't feel any different ! Then there's that operation looming that is going to take me out of work for a month. Hopefully that will be the last of it for a while, apart from recovery from the surgery.
The hardest part so far has been dealing with telling the people who need to know. My daughter is an RN and knows way too much for her own good. She has her own serious and complex health issues to deal with and this is something that neither of us needed to add to the mix. Added to that is the complex relationship (if i can call it a relationship) between my partner and daughter. My son is a bit like me.. just trying to make sense of it all and taking each bridge as we come to it. My partner is unerringly supportive but has his own mental heath issues so his anxiety levels are high. We are managing well so far, considering we are in the early days and it still doesn't make a lot of sense. I am so grateful for this resource. I feel like I can use this to stop things swirling around in my head for a while. REGARDS, Rusty.
