Its been a year since that conversation with my GP, when he told me the results of my ct scan. I could tell he hated having to tell me, and it was almost as though I tried to reassure him! I have to say that it took a long time for it all to sink in - how could this be happening to me, when I felt so fit and well. Even now it all seems so unreal at times. I try not to let it take over my life, but it is there in the back of my mind all the time. My husband also has cancer. With are both "senior citizens " and we do talk together about how we have had such a good life together, with no ill health over 50 years of marriage. We try to count our blessings - we have a wonderfully supportive family, and we have each other and are still in love.