Dad passed away @ 3.15am today after fighing one bloody tough battle.
Im numb,im sad, im relieved, im angry, im hurt, im frustrated, i feel sick, i want to curl up in a ball, I want to be there for my mum, I want to be alone...I don't know what I want!
I know I have been preparing for this and even as late as 8pm last night was talking to mum about the process and that I had been talking to a celebrant in relation to the service dad has said he wants. Now its real. I will grieve and I know thats okay.
Im glad I got to see him today, kiss him, hug him and help him when he needed it.
I am sitting here quietly waiting for my husband to return who has gone to pick up my brother so we can go and be with mum.
Now another journey begins on our rollercoaser of life.
You will now be able to breathe freely Dad....I love you xox
