Part 13: Where are the keys?

[Josh_Bonello_88]

As I mentioned in my last post, I was most vulnerable before I started treatment. I wrote this blog in what I believe to be the most chaotic time during my journey with cancer. Vivid dreams were often something that occurred on my journey. Enjoy folks http://www.thecancerstory.com/2011/10/part-13-where-are-keys.html

[Maggie_Mae]

Wow Josh....I'm reading these beautiful writings of yours and I was so disappointed when you swallowed the keys. I was so into it that I wanted to see what you had put in the safe. I was supposded to have part of my liver removed tomorrow and the surgeon's office called late yesterday afternoon to reschedule it for the 26th, next Tuesday. There is a piece of equipment that the surgeon needs and it comes from Miami. We are in Lee County and this surgery is not performed enough here to have our own equipment so it has to be "rented" from Miami. He has it booked again to arrive Monday for the surgery Tuesday AM. I can only imagine how you felt when they called you to change the date for your chemo. I have a friend in Canada who got lung cancer out of nowhere, had it removed and is now going through Chemo. Her hair is thinning but she is feeling okay. She has had one week of treatment so maybe the side effects have not started yet. They changed the date of one of her treatments and she was very upset. I reminded her that none of this is predictable and this may happen a few times throught her treatment. Easy for me to say.....I haven't started my treatment yet. I just wanted to say hi and wrap my old arms around you and give you some support. We do have to take it one day at a time as none of us are promised tomorrow, not even people without cancer. You take care young man and I will follow your dreams. Jan

[Josh_Bonello_88]

It was something I did often back then, so to speak. I can tell you now though that I have since then let all of that go and confessed my secrets to those that I kept them from :). After I finished treatment I let alot of things go. I have been given a new lease on life and it feels great! It was so frustrating and upsetting when they changed the dates, its not like changing the date for a work meeting or family gathering, it is changing the date of what will be the rest of your life in a way, but I have done the treatment now and I have recently been given the all clear so it does not matter anymore. It must be difficult knowing that the resources the doctors need to perform your husbands surgery are not at hand. It is much the same here in Sydney, there is a lack of oncology units and patients are crammed in at every hospital waiting for treatment. Chemo effects everybody differently, my side effects were felt almost as soon as I started treatment, so your friend might be lucky, but some side effects won't come on until after a certain period of time. Like life, treatment is also unpredictable and positive thoughts are a must. Your support is greatly appreciated, and may I return it to you with my support. I hope everything goes well with your husband's surgery and your treatment goes well, and if ever you need to talk, or want to ask me something please NEVER hesitate to get in contact with me. All my positive thoughts to you today, Joshua

[Maggie_Mae]

Well I'm very happy to hear you have got a clear pass Josh. It's actually me that's having the surgery and treatment and I do appreciate your response and kind words Jan

[Josh_Bonello_88]

Sorry Jan. I completely mis-understood what was written in your first comment. My thoughts and prayers are with you approaching surgery and treatment. Joshua