Well, we have now completed day 2 of radiation. Ben was great yesterday, very tired today, & a bit naseated. Reality hit, when I had to undress him & put him to bed tonight. Is this what my life is going to be? God, I pray for a miracle every day, please give me the miracle my family needs. My eldest daughter who is 3 is struggling, she was very emotional today. She knows dad is sick, and up till now she has played it off with offers of bandaids & cold glasses of water. But today, I think it has hit home as much as it can to a 3 year old. I'm strong, and I cope but some days, when I stop, and finally get 5 minutes on my own I feel scared. I feel scared of the unknown, I feel scared that I am not going to be enough for my girls. And I feel sad that there is a high chance they won't know their dad, or at least their real dad before this tumour stole him. I am extremely blessed, his brother isn't working at the moment & is driving him to and from radiation. This in itself is a massive help, nothing like driving an hour and waiting around with 2 young children at dinner time. I sit on my own tonight for the first time in nearly 7 months, lets hope once the radiation is completed in 6 weeks time, I'll have my soul mate next to me back to normal and hopefully kicking this tumour's butt!!!
2 Comments
Super Contributor
Hey Melanie, I so admire what you've done so far. I can't imagine how hard things are for you (my husband was never that sick, and we don't have kids)but what we went through was hard enough that my heart really goes out to you. I'm sending you warm and supportive hugs. love Emily
0 Kudos
Super Contributor
I feel for you . It would be such a difficult time in so many ways .Wishing your husband the best .
0 Kudos
Post new blog
Talk to a health professional
Cancer Council support and information 13 11 20Mon - Fri 9am - 5pm
Cancer Information and Support

Online resources and support

Access information about support services, online resources and a range of other materials.

Caring for someone with cancer?

Find out what resources and support services are available to assist you.