I had neck pain that was not getting better for a week and I knew it was not muscular so my doctor sent me for an ultrasound where they found a lump (18mm x 9mm) and the next step was booking in for a needle biopsy.I know full well it may be nothing but my rational brain seems to of left me and I’m left with anxiety depression and worry beyond anything I can ever recall.My neck pain has increased and now it hurts to swallow and it’s only been 2 days since the news and I have 2days untill the biopsy but I can’t tell if my pain is psychosomatic or real and now I’m relating all strange aches and pains ( especially those near my neck) as symptomatic proof of my worst fears.I don’t want to confide in my loved ones with any of this for fear of a false alarm but I’m afraid my irrational behaviour of late will cause them worry regardless.Im not even sure why I’m writing this,maybe it’s cathartic,maybe I’m looking for help I’m not total sure and I’m also acutely aware of the fact that people on this site are going through much worse than me (I could be fine) but researching my situation led me here and I have no experience in this field to relate too.If I have offended anyone with my trivial worries compared to yours I apologise.
Regards Mick
