I am so happy tonight- even though dad is on morphein and we have had a HORRIBLE few weeks- I am going by train tomorrow to spend a few days with my precious dad and he has said to me that he wants us to go to our favourite places for lunch/dinner- he said even though he can't eat I don't have the right to take away his pleasure from seeing me have a good time. I will try and respect his wishes but it will be so so hard. I am just so lucky to have the special dad that I have and that makes it even harder as he thinks more of me than he does himself. But at least he knows I am always here for him when his sons aren't and that hurts me too. But I will always know I have been there for dad. Chris
