Hi , I have had a very busy and emotionally draining week and I have just logged on to my computer. It was so nice to hear from other people who felt like me.
Harker, commented on having Multiple Myeloma as well, and said the stem cells had been harvested. The actual transplant is nothing more than having these stem cells transfused back in. The main issue is that they have to reduce your immune system to zero and try to rid your body of any trace of the cancer with a very strong chemo.
The whole process is quite amazing, but to build your strength both emotinally and physically is an enormous task.Some days I feel strong but lately I have been feeling very vulnerable.
I suppose the problem is when you have to work, for financial reasons. Sometimes the work can be positive, socially for your mind etc. But lately, in my work there has been an enormous overhaul and I am finding that my brain does not function like it used to.It is times like this that everything becomes tooo much and I feel I can not cope.
There really is no solution and it can be very frustrating, people then don't care that you had cancer treatment. You are well enough on the surface, so they expect results.
Sometimes I wish I could just throw it all in and stop being such a hero!1
