This past week my hubby has been on holidays with family. I booked him a ticket on the spur of the moment, although we did not really have the money. He has been given the all clear to go back to work and I thought this will be his last opportunity for a long while. Also I thought our marriage would end if I did not have some space really really soon. I feel so guilty feeling that way but he is like a thunder storm, constantly. My teenage children are talking of leaving and even my seven year old was misbehaving out of frustration.
Over the week he's been gone the house has been tranquil. The girls have not fought and we have laughed so much. We have cleaned the house from top to bottom, and surprisingly had a ball while doing it. I pick T up from airport tonight at half 8. I am hoping against hope that all he needed was some time away, and that he doesnt come home and cause upset all over again. It is scary waiting to see if once again we must all walk on egg shells. I don't think I can do it again. I KNOW the girls cant. One is suffering vomitting due to anxiety, and the other two have issues also.
I am the spouse of someone who had cancer and was hoping perhaps to hear from anyone who has been in a similar situation, and I am also VERY interested to hear from someone who has had cancer and has suffered the depression and anger I believe my husband is feeling right now.
My marriage is on the rocks and he won't get help.
:-(
Alana
