Hi Sally,
I don't know where to start except that I am sharing Amanda's tissue box.
The body and spirit have to be separate (and I am not religious)as this could be the only explanation for what has happened to so many of us. Every night I "talk" to my friend who I lost last year - my "chemo buddy" and while that may sound crazy, like this forum, the often only momentary chat acts as a sounding board.
I also call him and my other angel (lost 4 and 1/2 years ago) when I need some guidance to help me through the really alone patches.
I was so touched , from the beautiful image that you created, by the dignity of your children and the love that you all must share.
Perhaps your experiences teach us all that we must view life from a number of perspectives in order to make some sense of it all.
Thank you for sharing those precious moments with us.
Give your kids a hug,
Samex