I can't add anything helpful, except to tell you you're not alone
When I was diagnosed, my youngest son was 3. My middle boy (then 5) is autistic and has an array of challenges with his development and schooling. My eldest (then 7) had undiagnosed ADHD and needed help in order to get his education on-track. And I have always felt deeply that my most important reason for being on Spaceship Earth is to steward those beautiful little boys into a happy and successful adulthood ...
.. so the idea of checking out early was a terrifying kick in the guts.
I'm sorry, I wish I could somehow reduce or mitigate your fear and pain, all I can do is tell you that youre not alone and that you aren't (I HOPE !!) gone yet. Fight, pay whatever toll you have to pay to survive. Even after a total mastectomy, you'll still be vital, beautiful people, don't get caught up on the costs & details .. focus on survival. Don't get overwhelmed, find your anchor as you'll need a lot of mental strength to get through this.
Incidentally, I had a 50% chance of curative treatment, and if it failed, they gave me 6 months to live. almost 2.5 years later, I remain cancer free and have a good outlook to stay that way (touch wood). So the odds can be beaten.
Good luck, I hope you win your fight.
