Hi Joanna,
So sorry to hear your pain and suffering with chemo and other awful treatments that you are undergoing. I understand clearly about wanting more kids as i was diagnosed with breast cancer at a young age of 31 in 2006. I have one daughter too which i am ever so grateful, which many who i know are healthy and unhealthy and don't even have one child, so in that sense i am lucky!!. Its extremely hard to accept at times that your dreams and hopes have been taken away from you ( trust me i know that feeling) especially when you are young and had so many wonderful plans ahead. Sometimes i ask "Why me" too and sometimes i find it difficult to be happy for others because in my mind i should be having what they are having and doing but i guess these are the cards i have been dealt with and try to be happy in the present moment, which can be hard at times but i try my best.
Good luck and may God give you strength, hope and faith with what you are dealing with.
All the best and take care
Missy Moo x