Hi all, Thank you for your comments and useful advice too, gosh i thought i was the only one feeling this way since being diagnosed with B.cancer...obviously not! I sure do feel normal now and i guess i shouldn't feel bad the way i feel too, especially what i have been through and other cancer patients have ( which all of you have experienced too). I think its society, family and friends expecting us to move on and to forget about what had happened to us which isn't realistic and not possible.I guess we have moments where we don't think about cancer but cmon its always going to be with us even if we are cured or not.... so i have decided i am only going to have the people i want in my life and the ones who are not important who cares for them and what they have to say.... ... View more

Hi Joanna, So sorry to hear your pain and suffering with chemo and other awful treatments that you are undergoing. I understand clearly about wanting more kids as i was diagnosed with breast cancer at a young age of 31 in 2006. I have one daughter too which i am ever so grateful, which many who i know are healthy and unhealthy and don't even have one child, so in that sense i am lucky!!. Its extremely hard to accept at times that your dreams and hopes have been taken away from you ( trust me i know that feeling) especially when you are young and had so many wonderful plans ahead. Sometimes i ask "Why me" too and sometimes i find it difficult to be happy for others because in my mind i should be having what they are having and doing but i guess these are the cards i have been dealt with and try to be happy in the present moment, which can be hard at times but i try my best. Good luck and may God give you strength, hope and faith with what you are dealing with. All the best and take care Missy Moo x ... View more

Thanks guys for your lovely advice and sharing your journeys with me too...much appreciated missy moo ... View more

Thanks Claudie, you don't mind me asking what stage/grade/type of breast cancer you had. How old were you when you were first diagnosed? I have currently decided to get off it for a few months to see how i feel off them comapared to being on them. I just want to see and feel the difference if that makes sense. I already spoke to my GP about it and he was alright about it and i have left a message for my oncologist too with my decision. If i do decide to get back on them, will the drug work straight away? How long does it take for the tamoxifen to get out of your system? I was planning also to have another child too that is another reason why i have ceased treatment, i am nearly 35 and i feel my bilogical clock is ticking away too. I was on tamoxifen for 2yrs and 6mths, zoladex for 2yrs every mth i recieved a injection in my tummy( which i finished treatment in sept this yr) I had also 4 cycles of chemo/6wks of radio too. Anyway thanks for your response much appreciated Missy Moo ... View more

Hi Reena, I was diagnosed in Nov 2006 at the age of 31yrs old. I had invasive DCIS, stage/1, grade/1, 0 node involvement, ER+ and PR+. I had a lumpectomy, 4 cycles of chemo, 6wks of radio, 2years of zoladex and still on tamoxifen for over 2 years now. Its been a hard and long journey but i still have hope, you will have good happy days and really sad miserable down days which is quite normal to feel. Its been 3 years for me since i was diagnosed and i still feel a sense of loss and grief in my life. I am blessed to have a daughter and a wonderful husband too in my life. At the time i was diagnosed we were trying for our second child which was very hard to accept that i might not be able to have kids when i wanted it and maybe in the near future. I feel at times this opportunity has been taken away from me and my daughter is missing out on growing up with siblings too. Don't get me wrong my health is important to me but its really hard watching everyone around you being pregnant, newborns and kids with siblings this is the hardest for me personally but everyone is different with what they want and feel in there lives. All my life i just wanted to get married and have kids - just the simple life nothing grand and spectacular...! I found treatment chemo the hardest to deal with especially the hair loss, mouth ulcers, weight gain, joint pain and etc.... the first week is the hardest, than it gets better until you need to go for the next round, its always the way once you feel full of energy you need to got for the next round which really sucked!!! Radiation was much better for me personally, the only thing i hated it was you had to go in 5 days a week for 6 weeks and that was painful in itself besides the extreme red sunburn on my poor left breast. Tamoxifen is pretty much popping a tablet everyday for 5 years which isn't too bad compared to zoladex which i had to get injected each month for 2years so my ovaries are put to sleep so i don't get a menstruation which was awful because of my menopause symptoms which i still have hot flushes on and off today. i just finished my last injection last month - hooray!!!!!! You will get through this, you just have to beleive it and trust in yourself. You will look back and say OMG how did i survive all of this but you do with the strength and support of family and friends and in God... Good luck with everything you will be ok....don't give up! Missy Moo ... View more