hey, i am so sad to hear your news. my partner has an inoperable brain tumor, leukemia and its possibly spread. i know this is not the same as you, but my partner is a buddhist and he is more afraid of not living his life, no matter how much time he has left in this life. Hope, love, laugh, hug, smile, experience and live your life with joy. My thoughts are with you and pray that joy fills every moment of your life. gypsy