Hi Allicat,
I want to make a suggestion to you if I may.
I told you that I have been reading a book and it has helped me a lot. In the first chapter of the book it says that we don't ignore the experiences of our cancer history. How can we? We adapt to it.
This book is called "After Cancer a guide to your new life" and it has helped me out a lot. I suggest that you read it as it brings out the emotions that are normal. Glenys