Palliative care is what I have been offered.I went from feeling fine, just a lump in my neck to being told three days later that all they can do for me is make what is left of my life more comfortable and see if they can prolong it a bit. So I feel fine, I look fine, second cycle of chemo was pretty unpleasant but nothing as bad as I have read from some of you lovely people, the outcome is my tumours have shrunk drastically. I still have my hair, some of it is falling out but not that much. I have read about stage 4 lung cancer, the prognosis is very poor, but I am struggling with reconciling my lack of symptoms with the gravity of my situation. No wonder my middle son is in denial, he does not comprehend it when he sees me looking so "normal". I think the morphine patches are hiding most of the pain, I do get some from time to time so just take a tablet.
I have to admit I am petrified of what is to come. I know it will get much worse, and I think I would be willing to put up with what some of you are putting up with if there was a chance of cure.
I do not want to know how long I do have, but I do want to be prepared for what is to come, what to expect. I would welcome any comments, or insight any of you may have. There does not seem to be many lung cancer sufferers in this forum, and I therefore feel a little lonely.
I thank you all for reading.
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