Each lifes journey is different yet the same We are born, we grow , we learn We love, we fight, we cherish Our friends, our families   Never knowing what is in store Edging closer to the distant shore When we are finally no more Just a memory to those left behind   All we can hope is to leave fond thoughts and dreams A little of us in each and every heart we touch   January 2013 A year after the start of my continuing journey ... View more

My fading sight still see's so vivid, crisp and clear Remembering the beauty and magic of years long past. Bringing fond memories of sight, sense and sound. The smell of a rose, the sting of the thorn. The sound of a rippling stream over rocks cool and embracing. My first kiss, my first love, Happy times and the sad. Our first embrace that feeling of happiness and joy. Clouds in the sky, long sunsets and radiant dawns. The colours, the quietness and the clashing noise, Waves on the shore, birds in song, wind through the trees. Even as the shadows emerge our mind can still recall, The birth of a child, the feel of their hand grabbing your finger, that special smell. That first cry, word, step and fall. The memories of life vivid, crisp and clear.     November 2012   ... View more

A little dark this one as thaat was the space I was in :   Drifting, floating from day to day Never a worry, just a daze.   No thoughts, no dreams Blissfully ignorant.   Should I care What comes next or stay unaware.   Cant change my fate Accepted it and now just wait.   Eaten from inside No tears left.   No self pity Made my peace.   Got up off my knees Said my goodbyes   Watching as it slides away Distant far removed.   Always love you.   September 2015 ... View more

Drifting in and out of this strange state Enduced by something foreign to me Seeing things differently Black as white Blue as grey Colours changing different hues   What have you done Life was set Planned and finite Now tossed about Like a cork in the sea Not what I want   Nor asked for Controlling my fate Life, adventure all on hold I don't hate you But don't want you   Cancer just let me be   September 2016.   ... View more

Thank you to the Cancer Council for making this forum available for survivors to express themselves and talk about their journey, which while are all individual are somewhat the same.   When I was first diagnosed I went through the range of emotions that you would expect: anger, desperation, fear, self pity, concern for my loved ones, horror and self denial.   Asking the usual questions , why me, why now, what can I do, how long, what was the cause? Searching for the answers and not really finding any.   Being an active and I believed healthy person it hit me hard, left me breathless. After surgery I just had to slow down and go through the recovery phase, difficult for all and certainly played with my emotions.   I couldnt run, swim or box, my lifetime strategy for releasing anger and frustration, I had to look elsewhere for that release. My solution was to put to pen my thoughts, express my inner most fears and the like.   While I didnt intend on sharing these thoughts I have enjoyed the process of sharing a few on here, we are not alone, we have support, we have a bond and we are on a journey together yet alone.   There is nothing wrong with baring our souls, some ofmy pieces are very dark others more lifting depending on where I was at the time with my recovery, remembering that we are but human and hopefully our thoughts can assist others as they too journey through this mine field of emotions.   I dont claim to be anything other then a simple man embracing my illness and battling forward, hanging in there looking for each new morning to rise.   Happy to talk with others.   Regards Steve             ... View more

Slowly the sun rises from behind the ghostly gum Bringing mornings vista to life Reflecting back the glorious show Shadows removed now revealing all the hidden shapes to view Creating and releasing silky textures Pinks, greys, greens, reds, colours plentiful A beautiful display New day dawning A pleasure for all to see Hope renewed   August 2017 ... View more