Not great Jill, I am trying to be understanding but I am just put here to look after him and thats all I am in T's eyes. Even now that he is better, working, even considering starting over 35's soccer, I am still just here for him. It is draining and I am feeling very unappreciated and quite frankly like I could be anyone as long as I look after him. My bad but some times I dream someone else will come along and I can exit gracefully with my girls and LIVE. These are all pre-cancer problems that have come back ten-fold. Feel bad whinging when people are losing loved ones and struggling away with their cancer journeys, but like I said before, I can't talk to our friends and it feels lonely as hell most days. Anyway, you certainly don't need my woe. How are you coping this week? Hope you and the boys are managing to fit in some fun and good times with your husband and each other. I have this idea for getting a retreat/holiday accommodation built so people like all of us on here can afford to take their families away. Been putting it to various organisations and have had some really great responses! Sailor suggested someone to talk to and they may have some funding for me which is super! I will tell you all about it one day if your keen. Can use all the input I can get. I want to call it Pabs Place after my best friend who passed just over a year ago. Hopefully I will be so busy with this I won't have time to feel sorry about myself re home situation lol. i do so hate feeling sorry for myself. It just doesn't sit right!!! Time to turn off this darn computer. Start a new job tomorrow where I will be able to contribute 10% of earnings to my foundation :-) Look after yourself Jill Alana :-) ... View more

After watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory for the umpteenth time, Bj comes out to the loungeroom and says, "Geez Mum, when I grow up, i really want to be like them little orange guys. they are sooooo smart!' ... View more

busy day playing t-rex and soccer with the boys at school, then jumping in puddles with puppy on our afternoon walk. Mum says, 'time for a bath Bj.' 'My God Mum, what is wrong with you?' 'Don't be silly, its time to get cleaned up ready for dinner.' 'But it has taken me all day to get this dirty, and now you want me to wash it all away!' ... View more

WOOWOOOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWWOWOOOOOHOOOOOO! Congrats JO and Rob, I threw Tommy a surprise party and got his best friend up from SA for a week, just so he had a marker that imprinted into his brain celebrating the REMISSION word. I had read a few times on this site people feeling disappointedd they hadn't celebrated this milestone so I orgainised it for three weeks post chemo and there was about 40 of us. It was my birthday so I pretended we were going to dinner for that! (Had to make something up as we NEVER go out for dinner lol). Anyway, Tommy had a ball, and it was a good chance to thank all of those wonderful people who had helped us out so much along the chemo journey. Mind yourself Jo as you are dead right about the flooding of emotions. Everyone really fell apart once we got the remission go ahead. I was truly like a packhorse carrying everyones wait around then. Thank God for all of you!!! But it eases up pretty quickly if you recognise what is going on as it seems you do. And you know we are always here in cyberspace whenever you need us. Celebrate away you two!! Splash out on a good bottle of champas darling lmao!! So soso sososososo sososososo for you Alana :-) ... View more

WOOWOOOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWWOWOOOOOHOOOOOO! Congrats JO and Rob, I threw Tommy a surprise party and got his best friend up from SA for a week, just so he had a marker that imprinted into his brain celebrating the REMISSION word. I had read a few times on this site people feeling disappointedd they hadn't celebrated this milestone so I orgainised it for three weeks post chemo and there was about 40 of us. It was my birthday so I pretended we were going to dinner for that! (Had to make something up as we NEVER go out for dinner lol). Anyway, Tommy had a ball, and it was a good chance to thank all of those wonderful people who had helped us out so much along the chemo journey. Mind yourself Jo as you are dead right about the flooding of emotions. Everyone really fell apart once we got the remission go ahead. I was truly like a packhorse carrying everyones wait around then. Thank God for all of you!!! But it eases up pretty quickly if you recognise what is going on as it seems you do. And you know we are always here in cyberspace whenever you need us. Celebrate away you two!! Splash out on a good bottle of champas darling lmao!! So soso sososososo sososososo for you Alana :-) ... View more

while learning to use BIG words my daughter informed me that her friend asked if she would like to join her church constipation. With a straight face I asked my husband what he thought of that. He answered I think its a crap idea and we both fell about laughing. Min rolls her eyes at us and says, you guys are sooo AM mature. ... View more

Hi Aylaah, so sorry to hear your sad news. Please continue to access this site whenever you need to. we will be here with cyber hugs at the ready. through your pain, remember the good times. thinking of you and your family. Alana xxx ... View more

It is so hard for us to cope with the mood swings let alone being a child and trying to comprehend it all. Thinking of you all Jill. Sending hugs also and kind thoughts, hoping you are still getting the support you need. well done for the counselling!! It is good to show the boys talking can help some. Take care Alana xxx ... View more

Like the time she couldnt sleep when she slept at her friends as the fish were farting. Bj has MANY moments like this. :-) ... View more

Here is a little giggle for all. Today it was my daughters 8th birthday. Bj is a real tomboy, climbing trees, playing with dinosaurs and handling bugs and reptiles whenever she is allowed! Anyway, a friend who is invited to her full camo gear laser skirmish party asked her if she would like a Bratz or Barbie as a present. She says thank you so much for asking but I cant have one. I am allergic to them. They make me feel very sick and i dont want to be sick on my birthday party!??!?!? What the....? When I asked her why she said that she said its true, and when I have to play them with my friends, I get really tired too. haha. Guess Barbies are boring to Bj 🙂 ... View more