I have been thinking about you a lot lately so jumped online to see if perhaps there was a reason you kept popping into my head. I am sad to see there is. I wish I could take your pain from you, but that would be an arrogant thing to do. You feel this way because you loved so hard, thats who you are Jill. I have added a verse that gave me some comfort when my best friend of 25 years passed away.It took a couple of months to appreciate its meaning as I was still so angry he was gone but I hope it brings you a little comfort as it does me now. It is partly behind my fundraising obsession LOL When I come to the end of the road and the sun has set for me I want no rites in a gloom filled room, why cry for a soul set free Miss me a little but not too long, and not with your head bowed low Remember the love we once shared Love me but let me go For this journey we all must take and each must go alone Its all part of the Masters plan, a step on the road to home When you are lonely and sick at heart Goto the friends we know and bury your sorrow in doing good deeds Miss me but let me go I can only give you virtual hugs but please know your not alone Jill. I am just on the end of a message whenever you need me Thinking of you always Alana ... View more

sending love an strength your way xxx ... View more

why do people think its wrong to feel? Because that is what is happening to you right now. You are FEELING loss, you are FEELING grief, you are FEELING despair. You are FEELING all those FEELINGS that people are suppose to feel when they lose someone they love. Ofcourse you are!!!! You FEEL all this as long as you need to and we will all keep listening as long as it takes for you to FEEL better. You are right, it does FEEL like a physical pain in every pore of your body. Hugs and strength sent your way. Alana ... View more

sending you all love and compassion to yourself and your children. We, your cyber buddies are always here when you need us. Take strength from us in the weeks and months ahead Alana xxx ... View more

I have been surprised who has stood up and offered help through all this. I now have a whole new group of friends who I barely knew before that just stepped up and said we are helping!! I feel like I have known them forever. Always here for you Jill xxx ... View more

verdict in today. Lymphoma is the word thrown around this time. Whole new cancer apparently. OP and chemo......again. Seems T's body has it in for him. (his words) keeps throwing these mutant aliens at him. genetic mutations. Did not see onc so not sure if those were his words or one of T's famous conspiracy theories. Whatever it is we are back in the cancer world, with an uncertain future, cancelled cruise, and those dreaded words 'stay strong'. Forever changed by this relentless stalker....cancer ... View more

Thanks for sharing. You always put so much of yourself into your posts. I wonder if you truly know how many of us you have helped. I hope I have been able to help you even a smidge as much as you have helped me. Think about you and your boys all the time and hope that things are not to hard. Take care Jill. We are all blessed to have had contact with you even if it is because of that awful C word. Yoiu are a very special lady Alana xxx ... View more

Here we go again. Infected lymph nodes. Seems I will be caring from afar this time. Trying to still offer as much support as possible. T is very convinced it is the end for him. Scary to have him in such a negative frame of mind. Spend hours talking him back 'up' again. Any advice? ... View more

yes she is the onliner child. barrels of entertainment all year round haha ... View more

Julie thats fantastic!! I usually average $3000 for greatest shave and girls night in and I am on the massive gold coast!!! BMT is a little one for us, Bj's project this year and I think we would have raised around $5-600 She is now talking about using her film and television contacts to make a doco about Pabs Place!! This is an 8 year old girl we are talking about. I dont know whether to be sad that she has thought so much about this instead of thinking about when the next hannah montana film is out or whatever normal eoght year old gurls think about. I do know that I am very proud that she is showing such empathy so young. Anyway well done Julie that is a wonderful effort :) Take care Alana ... View more