Thank you Nikki Every lil bit helps. Talking to ppl in the know is essential! It is all new to me lol! Off to SA today to recruit some committee members to get Pabs registered as a charitable organisation. Received the abn the other day so we are making lil baby steps all the time :-) Take care Alana ... View more

I know what you mean Julie. It all just seems so unfair at times and feeling helpless is something that I abhor. Maybe thats why I am such a fundraising junkie lol!! Hope your w/e is a good one, despite your friends test results. Laugh a lot and enjoy your time together, Teach is right!! Take care Alana ... View more

Oh Jill, I feel like there are no words to help, but want to put some words there anyway just so you know I am thinking of you. Passing you some strength through cyber space, and you too wifeyb, I really feel for you both. Alana xxxxx cyber hugs by the millions ... View more

yes Jill i will still be going for sure. Need my sisters at the moment, actually yearn for them, which is funny as I haven't through the whole cancer journey. I have so many meetings for Pabs Place as well while I am there as well as presentations for work (which are also really to do with Pabs Place lol). Pabs aka Paul birthday is March 3 so will be spending that with his wife and family and other third of the musketeers haha. Thank you Samex and Jo. We will get through always do, but I appreciate your kind words of support. Will be one busy lil munchkin!! Thanks everyone, hope your week is going well. Alana 🙂 ... View more

Thanks Jill and Julie, Such a hard decision in a way but an easy one at the same time, I cannot allow anyone to treat my girls this way. Unfortunately staying with my Mum is not an option. I will have to rent a place for six months and reassess after that. T has agreed to counselling so a positive step already. Just sux it had to come to this to get him there. Are these trials never ending? I dont expect an easy ride but wow am I tired. I havent given up yet though and will never be beaten. Lifes to short and precious not to fight for what matters. Boo was getting sick on the way to school 😞 Havent had the heart to tell lil Bj yet. Cry everytime I think about doing it. ... View more

gone to far this time. Went to hit, and I dont mean smack, my daughter. She has gone to my mums and doesnt want to come home. AFter all the battling together against this stupid disease, we come to this? Time to move out. I f I wasnt here he would have hit her!?!?! And the language that came out of her mouth, so out of character. SHe doesnt treat adults that way. He has agreed to counselling but I want my girls a safe distance away while we work through these issues. Heartbroken, devastated, lost, so many things. But no one and I mean NO ONE hurts my babies. :-( ... View more

gotta form a committee to register pabs as a charity. mission for this week....recruitment!! Lol. Thanks Nicole, I feel really strongly that it would be a real moral boost if nothing else to have this place available to people with any serious or terminal illness. There is a little boy with muscular dystrophy who is in hospital and has been for a couple of months supposedly living out his last days and his Mum wants to give me a hand. She dreams about somewhere like Pabs to be at the moment. Next hurdle, registering as a charity!!!! One baby step at a time :-) ... View more

Joanna, Everytime I read one of your posts I am in awe of you. You exude inner strength even through all of your battles. Your an inspiration! Take care Alana ... View more

Hi Doofette1 I dont see how wanting to get on with your life can be a bad thing. Those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind so dont give a thought to what others will think. Anyone who truly cares about you will want you to live your life. Take little steps and listen to your feelings. I wish you all the best in living Alana ... View more

wow wifeyb, u seem to have looked into my very soul. It is so hard to get it all right. As long as we do our best and our intentions are right, we are doing all we can do. so hard as the carer to get the balance right isnt it. hugs after hugs after hugs, I know how u feel exactly. Your time out is VERY important, please remember that Alana ... View more