My goodness Sailor, as if you don't have enough to contend with? I agree with HArker, your relative is very fortunate having you around. I keep noticing a recurring motif of your dislike of the giant plasma screens. Hope that you got some sleep and that you are recovering. S ... View more

Flight, I too am really interested in some type of volunteering but I can't really consider it until I retire in 2 years. I would be really interested in something like Bev or Craftyone in using my experiences to guide others through the maze. I'm sure that when I have the time, I will still e needed! I don't think, unforunately that cancer is going anywhere soon. How good would it be if our services were no longer needed!! S ... View more

Thank you Kate. It is a tough thing to have to do. While we are "only" cyber friends, I do believe that we do form, as Kate says, a community of sorts. Vinouche always showed such courage and was often sharing that courage with others in our cyber community. Once again the reality hits. Once again, the sadness. Samex ... View more

Hi Vicki, I missed these somehow while on chemo but I have a friend who is semi-retired from the cosmetic industry and now involves herself in these. She loves being a part of it.She finds it enjoyable and satisfying to say the least. Glad that you had a good day. I dunno, Sailor, a little bit of fake tan never goes astray does it? S ... View more

I'm not a vegetarian but I can't eat something that I've met. I make a really bad fisherperson! ... View more

Good luck wih the sheets!!! Sean - I like it! ... View more

Many years ago, when I was living at my Mum's she had a sheep live next door with no fences. It was a very hot day and the poor thing started chewing my sheets on the line as it was thirsty. The sheets were never the same again! I hope your goat has better manners. S ... View more

i think that I would rather the goat as well. Emus don't do it for me. S ... View more

Hi Harker, As usual I continue to admire your strength and ability to deal with what life hands to you. Your writing is an inspiration - and I am by no means being cliched here. I hope that if I am presented with a reccurence I can face it with the same honesty and dignity. I am really pleased that you are able to talk with your wife as well. Keep us posted. Thinking of you, S ... View more

hi Olivia, Sorry it's taken a while but wanted to have a think. I thought I was mad until I found this site and realsied that my crazy thoughts were quite"normal" for those of us in the survivor community. It took me some time (18 months after 7 months of chemo)to finally seek professional help. My circumstances were that my husband and teenage sons considered that treatment was over, tests results were good - we've done cancer - move on. I really struggled with what my psych termed cognitive dissonance and recurrence phobia. The cognitive dissonance related to how my values had altered because of cancer but others around me carried on in the same way. The recurrence phobia was the irrational fear of recuurence. Everything was pointing to a full recovery but every "niggle" as I called it sent me into a spin back to my GP. The counselling and the anti-ds have helped enormously. My depression is much more controlled and my anxiety is still there but manageable. Please be assured that your feelings are "normal" and it is something that I feel is left unaddressed in this world of cancer. The transition from sick - well is not as easy as people would like to believe. Try reading the book "Two Years to Normal" by Karen Lebovitch (I think). I found that I related to a lot of what she dealt with. Good luck with it all and stay in touch here as many of us have similar experiences. Enjoy your babies, Samex ... View more