What a beautiful soul you are. You are allowed to waffle, in fact, you are amongst some of the greatest wafflers on this site so you have come to the right place.
Somtimes we don't know and we just have to go with the flow. Feel free to offload - you have a beautiful way of writing :)
I wish I had the answers, but sometimes we just have to do the best we can and you seem to be doing beautifully!
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The Cruel Sea - Nicholas Monsorat - Beautiful
Sailor much loved from this drugged up Teach. May you have the charts and the Gods guiding your beautiful ship to steady waters and to a safe shore.
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And yet, still groggy from the general anesthetic and with the odor of hospital chemicals invading my senses I am inspired to write.
As I say, and keep saying (and believing), everything happens for a reason under this great and beautiful universe.
From what I can gather, post surgery all seems to be normal. Well, normal is always relative in my case. My normal means no change, nothing to be worried about at this stage and cancer can sit in the backseat..for now. (it is OK to cheer a collective yet cautious WHOO HOO!!!!) I do however, have two ‘issues’ to monitor instead of one. The first being the original (primary) tumour recurrence which includes the blood tests every 4 weeks and the MRI every 6 months and now Dysplasia (precancerous cells in the cervical area) which also need to be monitored with frequentish testing. Both conditions are unrelated and realistically, this won’t be the last time it will happen throughout the 10 years of surveillance. Ebbs and Flows.
Back to my everything happens for a reason comment. Whilst chatting to the Oncology Social Worker (let me give you a brief background – you have a general social worker and then you have an oncology social worker – difference being, one deals with all the death, dying and uncertainty bits and the other one…not so much 🙂 So where you see Oncology, rest assured we have our own set of medicos I even have access to a Clinical Psychologist (Oncology) who just deals with cancer related issues. You get the picture.
Anyway I had a meeting with Dr. H (Onc. Social Worker) today and she has asked me to provide her with website feedback and at a later stage work with her in a consultant capacity on a project she and my Glasweigian House and Geniushave developed.
The project is called: My Kite Will Fly
It is an art therapy, emotional expression website for children of parents who are undergoing cancer treatment. It is aimed at different age groups and it is a simply beautiful website that is so inspiring and heartfelt and I think sometimes, it is just what kids need to deal with the tough issues. The opportunity is truly amazing as s the ability to take my patient / hospital / cancer experience and to make it so positive for others near and wide is truly a gift. “They didn’t tell me till last because I was too small” Daniel, 7.
When I don’t have predominate cancer issues I will be working tirelessly behind the scenes where needed. Whether it be raising money, shaving my head and asking for donations, raising awareness or using my talents and knowledge to provide a creative outlet for little hearts or souls whose journey needs to be cushioned. I can honestly say with an open heart, mind and soul, the black days that I experienced last week, the insecurity, the heartache, the overdose of cancer discussion in our household until we were ready to purge was well worth it. Sometimes you need to have faith to take the first step, even when you cannot see the staircase in front of you.
Sincerest thanks again to you, for your messages of hope, of love, touching base and wishing me well, your precious moments are so appreciated and now, I will go to bed and sleep for a couple of days 🙂 xoxoxox.
“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer” Albert Camus
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He he ! That's awesome! Thanks guys, I did have a chuckle - Now have I got one for you! A PhD teacher and a dear friend in Religious studies gave me this one so I figured it was ok! Feel free to laugh as loud as you like he he 🙂
This comes from a Catholic elementary school. Kids were asked questions about the Old and New Testaments.
In the first book of the bible, Guinessis, God got tired of creating the world, so he took the Sabbath off.
Adam and Eve were created from an apple tree. Noah’s wife was called Joan of Ark. Noah built an ark, which the animals come on to in pears.
Lot’s wife was a pillar of salt by day, but a ball of fire by night.
The Jews were a proud people and throughout history they had trouble with the unsympathetic Genitals.
Samson was a strong man who let himself be led astray by a Jezebel like Delilah.
Samson slayed the Philistines with the axe of the Apostles.
Moses led the Hebrews to the Red Sea, where they made unleavened bread which is bread without any ingredients.
The Egyptians were all drowned in the dessert. Afterwards, Moses went up on Mount Cyanide to get the ten ammendments.
The first commandment was when Eve told Adam to eat the apple.
The seventh commandment is thou shalt not admit adultery.
Moses died before he ever reached Canada. Then Joshua led the Hebrews in the battle of Geritol.
The greatest miracle in the Bible is when Joshua told his son to stand still and he obeyed him.
David was a Hebrew king skilled at playing the liar. He fought with the Finklesteins, race of people who lived in Biblical times.
Solomon, one of David’s sons, had 300 wives and 700 porcupines.
When Mary heard that she was the mother of Jesus, she sang the Magna Carta.
When the three wise guys from the East side arrived, they found Jesus in the manager.
Jesus was born because Mary had an immaculate contraption.
St. John the blacksmith dumped water on his head.
Jesus enunciated the Golden Rule, which says to do one to others before they do one to you. He also explained, “a man doth not live by sweat alone.”
It was a miracle when Jesus rose from the dead and managed to get the tombstone off the entrance.
The people who followed the Lord were called the 12 decibels.
The epistles were the wives of the apostles.
One of the oppossums was St. Matthew who was also a taximan.
St. Paul cavorted to Christianity. He preached holy acrimony, which is another name for marriage.
Christians have only one spouse. This is called monotony.
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I cannot stand it. It is like having an itch I cannot scratch I am going insane, I am convinced of it, well hanging between insanity and feeling dark. Although, some would question my sanity to begin with.... The next 24 hours are going to drive me insane SO...I have decided I will laugh or perhaps even chortle my way into surgery. Please post a joke or three, a funny story or anecdote because I think the straw is about to break on this lumpy camels back!
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Hi Missy Moo,
Do it all the time, it has become part of my predictable repertoire my husband says - wanting to run away and escape from it all and we will do anything we can to push people away whilst trying to get 'the hell out of here' wherever here is for us.
Absolutely and totally normal Missy Moo - take it from someone who has divorced her husband in word oh, about 37 times in a month or so 🙂 generally before the blood tests are due or I am scheduled to have something done 🙂
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Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.