Hi Teach,
I have taken a long time to respond to your post and read it many times......
It has struck such a chord with me............
I have found that I am have such a large amount of guilt in particular with regards to my little girl - who has just turned three - who for the best part of last year - ended up sleeping with myself or my husband (who initially left me for the first three months after diagnosis) She also had her own issues - mild cerebral palsy and last year had her tonsils/adnoids and grommits out and suffers from asthma that is particularly bad at night.
After a lot of 'tut tutting' by various grandmas etc etc, we have her back in her own bed, where she went through a series of terrible nightmares .................
During the day she is a lovely, normally well adjusted little girl, but has a tendancy to ask her dollies if they are ok a lot more then normal and pretends that they are sick are little bit too much.........I live in a very small town without psychologists or counselling and due to epilepsy caused by cancer I don't have a drivers licence to get to one in the larger regional centres (she has witnessed me have one major seizure), just lately this is something that her daycare centre has been harping on about...........I think it is her way of dealing with things. I am trying to organise weekend counselling when I can get someone to drive me there.
Your post has helped me not feel like the only family in the world that is going through this, or like such a terrible parent that has imposed such grownup issues on a little girl that is so young.
Thakyou for that Teach,
Nicole
xoxoxo
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