Hi Julie, Thanks for your reply. I have not met anyone else who suffers with the strange feelings that I have. Yes, I do have a Cancer Nurse from the Mc Grah (sorry I don't know how to spell this) Foundation assisting with my doctors' visits at the hospital. She is excellent at obtaining appointments for tests when no appointments are available, so she does have a great deal of influence in the hospital. But she just says that I should be coping better than I am. How are you coping yourself? Cheers, Renee ... View more

Hi Peter, I am on my second time around for this whole process, but this latest session has been really life changing for me, so I can relate to what you are saying. My latest session of treatments started in September last year. I was happily working as a teacher in a Northern Territory remote community. But this place was too far away from the doctors and hospital. So I had to resign from my job and lost my free accomodation which went with my job. I was forced to go to the nearest town for treatment, which is Darwin. My daughter lives in Darwin, so I thought that going to live with her would be ok and that I would get the emotional support I needed. Not so. I suddenly found that I spent all day and nearly every night on my own. The doctors and nurses at the hospital kept telling me that I was depressed. But I wasn't depressed. I just didn't want to deal with all this on my own and I just wanted someone to sit down and talk to me. I didn't really want to talk to friends, because I found that they didn't really understand or were not interested in hearing about what I am going through. After a couple of months, I moved out of my daughter's flat and I am now staying with a girlfriend. Her friendship didn't really make the difference to how I feel emotionally now, but she gave me a book to read which has helped me so much. Even if you are a person who does not read very much, this book (and I can suggest others too) will help you with your emotions, so please give it a try. The book is "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise L. Hay. Louise had Cancer herself and she explains how to stay positive and get through this. You will be able to buy a new copy in the book shops and you should be able to find it at a local library. I spend most of my day in bed, so I have gone on to read other good books since finishing this one by Louise. So emotionally, I am in a much better place now than I was last November. I hope my suggestion helps, let me know how you are going. Cheers, Renee ... View more