Not in the land of the living (stage 4 and symptomatic) but not (yet) diagnosed as terminal.  Just doing the best I can and if truth be told feeling a little dilatory or lazy or fake sick.  But I'm not fake sick.  Just had a round of scans and it's just about everywhere.  Throughout my skeleton, liver, lung.  Could go on but who wants to be morbid? My doctor's appointment is in a couple of days and he's in for a rough time.  Ha ha.   So how do I progress from here?  Will have a rough notion of life expectancy in two days.  If bad, will probs get drunk, slam my husband with the news and poss ask for a divorce and then have the task of telling my two twenty something daughters the news. If the letrozole can hold the fort for a while will end up doing what I'm doing now and putting up with the day to day symptoms and mostly lying on my back interspersed with a few chores and trips to the beach for afternoon walks.   I dream of driving away and living the rest of my life travelling the desert in a comfortable road home.  Not sure what that's going to accomplish. Between worlds.  (Wouldn't it be lovely if we could  wake up and it was all a bad dream?) Best wishes to you all.   L_C_C   ... View more