Hi Everyone   thank you for the opportunity to talk to fellow travellers on this shitty journey. I made a huge decision a few weeks back and that was to turn down the treatment offered to me. My insurance provider would cover it and it costs over $200,000 a year but I said no.   I initially said yes as a carrot was dangled in front of me that one in 4 people lived 8 years after the treatment. I later realised that is actually only a 25% success rate. I was given a thick set of documents that explained all the known possible side effects one of which was DEATH.   It was like Russian Roulette but with bullets in all but one of the chambers! Heart damage, eye damage, brain damage on and on went the list. It was truly horrifying. Quality of life is important to me and I would rather die in 2 years time having some healthy months first than start the treatment treadmill and feel horrible right now.   Mentally I am struggling to cope while I am physically healthy. If I submitted to that torture regime I would be seriously suicidal in no time. I am seeing a psychologist who is very helpful as I do feel like getting it all over with. I feel like a Zombie both alive and dead at the same time.   I have some idea what to expect as in June 2023 I had my right kidney removed. In the months leading up to the operation I was losing weight and feeling weak and faint. The kidney cancer is now in my liver and pancreas.   I am currently still healthy so have been going hard out making memories with all my loved ones. Lots of road trips together, picnics, going out for dinner that kind of thing.   If I had started the treatment I would have been sick immediately and likely unable to keep working. My online business keeps me sane while dealing with the news and I need the money to be able to do things with my loved ones.   Is there anyone else out there who has made a similar decision to me to refuse treatment?     ... View more