Hi Karen70... I lost my husband in May  2024- the week before his 57th birthday so understand what you're going through.  I miss him every day.  He was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel and liver cancer after heart issues after the AstraZeneca covid flu shot.  He ended up on blood thinners which erupted  his bowel tumor (primary tumour).  We have (had) 3 boys - 25, 23, 16 - the eldest 2 from his previous marriage but we raised them all since they were young.  I thought it would get easier but it's got so much harder - I don't know what to do with myself.  Our youngest son is doing really well.  The middle son gone back to live with his mother after 15 years is doing it tough and the oldest one moved out - but struggling.  I wish I could help you - always here to chat if you need someone to talk to.  No one understands unless we've been through it - but all have good intentions.  Take care of yourself and your children. xx ... View more