Hi @Leonie1111, I’m really sorry you’re facing such a painful and frightening decision, especially after losing your two brothers to cancer. It makes complete sense that chemotherapy feels frightening after what you’ve seen. One suggestion is to ask your oncologist very directly what the aim of treatment is: whether it is to slow the cancer, reduce symptoms, or give more time with a manageable quality of life. You could also ask what side effects are most likely for your exact plan, and whether treatment can be paused, reduced, or changed if it becomes too much. It may also help to speak with a nurse or counsellor so you don’t have to carry this fear alone. Whatever you choose, it should respect your comfort, your wishes, and the time you want to protect. You may find more help on chemotherapy support to understand what to expect and what options are available. Sending strength and care your way. ... View more