I am not a complaining person in general. but the one thing I do love about the American site is that I can just say what I am about to say.
My sister in law died from a heart attack in 1994 her husband & my brother had a heart attack the following year & is still alive due to the little sort of pacemaker he has inside him, my sister in law to be died in 1995 just before my wedding due to lung cancer ( non smoker & non drinker) My younger brother had a minor stroke in 2000. My mum died from pancreatic cancer in 2002 my dad died after a complete laryngectomy due to throat cancer in 2002 from a heart attack, I lost a very good and close male friend to asbestos cancer in 2005. I was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer which is inherited from my mum in June 2011, my brother who has the mini pace maker was then going through radiation for throat cancer which is all cleared but he can never have radiation again. My sisters husband has been undergoing treatment for prostate cancer, they also have a 20yr old son who is autistic and also has a very rare brain disease so he may never reach 21, my sister has also just been told that her diabetes two may be going to diabetes 1.
Hell I don't complain and why the hell should I. There are a lot of people worse off than me.
I fight for my life and I fight for everyone else's life. That's just the way I am. I will help and give advice to anyone on this sight if I am able to do so. I will fight for all of us in one way or the other. I hate CANCER and I will fight it no matter what.
Even if it just means some of us talking about it or saying what we really want to say without someone trying to stop us. We all need to just let it go at one stage or the other. and that should be one of the main reasons for this site.
Cancer puts us all under different stress, emotions, pressure plus the side effects of what ever treatment we are all on and we all need to be able to release it and the only other people that will really understand what we are about are other people with cancer.
Every now and then I really need to let my emotions loose, so I sit outside and cry by myself.
All I really need to do is put it into words and send it off into cyberspace. Then you can all read it and maybe let yourself loose your emotions the same way and we can all start talking.
May god bless you all and may you remain healthy for as long as you are able to, may you all keep fighting it until the end finally comes, for those that have the end close to them, you are loved by so many people. Every person that has cancer is close to you and every one of those people feel for you and love you.
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