Hi, Im not necessarily looking for answers I just need to vent. My Mum has had a rough 3 years with numerous illnesses that seemed to happen after each other, and in June this year was diagnased with CUP (Carcinoma of Unknown Primary) - secondary in the liver attached to adrelan gland, she was told at the time of daignosis that this cancer would end her life and she chose not to recieve any further information on this, which we all respected and did not pursue. She has been on Chemo which knocked her around, her body reacted to the Chemo and she started slipping into a depresion, anxiety attacks and became very attached to us during this time so the Dr's stopped the chemo to give her time to recover, this has allowed the cancer to continue growing and through her oncologist appointment have found out she has 6-8 months to live as it is aggressive stage 4 during some questions, Im not sure if the Dr mis understood our line of questioning or just let it slip while providing answers to us. Where the issue lies is Mum was out of the room being weighed when the oncologist told us this, and my Dad and I have agreed to respect her wishes and not tell her until she is ready to know - this is killing me. She keeps on talking about beating this and going on holiday, and I just want to burst into tears all the time as she will not be able to acheive this and it is getting harder to live this lie infront of her. I have only my Dad to talk to as we cannot afford to tell anyone else, while mum doesnt know no one else will, and I feel like I want to shout it out, I want to be able to talk to her about this and I cant and I feel sick. Our focus right now is giving her the best christmas she will ever have. Feels good to just write it so thanks for listening. ... View more